Well, hello there. Again.

I'm starting over. New year, fresh start, hopefully with the success I've had in the past. With the determination to make it stick this time.

There's a part of me that wants to say, why bother? Why try again for the 4,632 time? Call me a sucker, but I have to.

So today, the first day of 2008, I begin again.

I actually ate breakfast today, which is one of my resolutions for this year. It's very easy for me to skip it, but I know how bad that is.

So....

1 light english muffin
1 wedge laughing cow cheese
1 small banana
1 cup coffee with two tablespoons creamer

2 oz. tiny mozzarella
3 large Trader Joe's garlic & cheese croutons
1 large tomato
1 tbsp. olive oil
vinegar

3 oz. flank stank
carmelized onions
1 tbsp. balsamic glaze
1 1/2 cups mashed potatoes with carmelized onions and horseradish

1/3 cup ice cream
2 small Trader Joe's mint cookies

I've been struggling for the past few days. It started last week with my little ER visit. I didn't eat that well the next two days (I didn't go over points, but I wasn't planning my food, just sort of eating to eat). On Friday we went to Pizza Hut for Joey's birthday. We also had a TCBY cake. I did manage to stay within my points without dipping into flex. Saturday and Sunday could be considered a free for all. I tried to get back on track yesterday but felt like I was failing miserably. I almost gave in and binged, but I decided to journal. I realized that I was actually UNDER points for the day. I almost ruined a whole day because I felt like I'd done so bad, when I really hadn't. I'm back on track today, I journaled this AM and have had a great day so far. I have a nice points-friendly Valentine's meal planned for tonight. I'm not sure how the rest of the week will go. I'm not expecting to show a loss after Saturday and Sunday. I'm also pretty sure Thursday won't be such a great day because of L's surgery. We'll see though. At least I haven't given up.

I lost another 1.8 this week for a total of 12.6 in 5 weeks. All hail the old WW plan! I did have a rough day today. I plan on getting back on track tomorrow, but unfortunately the snow makes me want to eat. I don't have too much going on this week (besides Lauren's surgery on Thursday), so hopefully I can have another great week, minus any ER trips! I know my week would have been better had I not been sidetracked by my visit. Honestly, Thursday and Friday I barely drank 2 glasses of water. Oh well, here's to a better week (and no *unplanned* hospital visits).

I weighed in this morning and lost 2.6 lbs. this week. My one month total is 10.8 lbs. Yay me!

I did have a really good week, and I did climb a gozillion stairs last night, so I won't be expecting such a big loss next week. I am very happy to have passed the 10 lb. mark! I am back to the weight I was in September. My next goal is hitting the 15 pound mark.

The big guy is doing well too. He's lost over 13 pounds in the past month. For some reason, he can tweak his eating a tiny bit and lose. I wish I could be so lucky! I have to totally overhaul my diet to get the results I do. Frustrating!

I lied to my mother today. I know she's been curious about my weight, and today she finally worked up the nerve to ask me about it, even though I've told her I don't want to discuss my weight with her. So I lied. I know she doesn't mean it, but she can make me feel bad about myself in less than a minute, so I just shut her off.

Mom: "Have you started dieting again?"
Me: "No"
Mom: "But I thought you wanted to lose a lot of weight this year, I thought you were going to start."
Me: "Nope."

She'll figure it out the next time she sees me in June. I don't like lying, but hey, she shouldn't be talking about it when I asked her not to!

I had another great week. Tomorrow marks one month since I've been back on plan. I also haven't bit my nails in a month. I am fierce!